Bad decisions make good stories.

Uhm I'm not planning to… so I don’t think I’d consider. Haha!

Meganoooon! Uwi ka na dali! Char. Medyo sarado ako ngayon HAHAHA hindi ako makapagbake dahil busy busyhan ang lola mo.

Never ever naman ako papayagan ng magulang ko magbora dahil feeling nila 12 years old lang ako. Haha! Tsaka wala din akong pera pang Bora, lahat napunta na sa aso ko. Tsaka wala akong katawan na pang bora. Haha! Sa closeup naman di kami nakapagkita eh, tinext ko siya pero wala akong natanggap na reply kaya sayang.

4 Notes | Posted on April 09, 2014

1. Hello, Wakel. I really admire yours and Pao’s relationship. The both of you look so happy together to the point na gusto ko na lang umiyak. I’m so proud of you guys. For never giving up and fighting for each other. Alam ko naman yung love story niyong dalawa. It was hard when it began. Gusto ko kayong icongratulate for being together this long. Sobrang proud ko lang sa inyong dalawa. Ewan ko ba. Inaabangan ko talaga yung pictures niyo lagi eh. You always have that spark, alam mo yun? (Pt. 1)

2. Natutuwa ako kasi sa dinami dami ng pinagdaanan niyo, nagawa niyong tumagal ng ganito. Tapos college started and you made it work. Alam kong walang perfect relationship but I’m starting to think otherwise. Alam mo bang I lost my faith in love a long time ago? But when I see your pictures parang I'm starting to question my beliefs. Yung relationship niyo is the only piece of hope I have left in terms of love. Parang gusto ko ulit maniwala na love exists. (Pt. 2)

3. Ang sarap maniwalang love is real pag nakikita ko kayo to the point na my heart aches. Nakakatakot kasi mag mahal eh. I’m scared. Ngayon, I still have at least 25% in me na naniniwala sa love but if you guys break up, baka mawala na yun. Haha. Alam kong walang forever but with the both of you, alam kong meron. Just staying strong, ok? Promise me na kahit anong mangyari you will make this work. Don’t give up on each other. Alam kong you love each other. (Pt. 3)

4. Please make this relationship work. I love the both of you. Sana forever na kayo. Kaya niyo yan. Things might get tough at times pero I know that it’ll be all worth it. Wag kayong magsawang intindihin yung isa’t isa. Haha. This relationship has to be the best I’ve seen. You’ll make it, trust me. Kaya don’t you dare give up on each other. Haha. Love you, guys!!! Stay strong , future Mr. and Mrs. De Leon. ♥ my heart knows that it will be the both of you in the end. PLEASE MAKE IT WORK HA? HAHAHA

5. Hello! I’m not in the right place to ask this question and I’d totally understand if you won’t give a definite answer but I just want to ask this since it’s been bothering me A LOT and I thought, why not try? Anyway, sa almost two years niyong relationship, what was your biggest fight all about? Yung tipong you even broke up or even considered it? Para kasing masyadong perfect yung relationship niyo and I’d be a fool to even seriously consider that because even the best things have flaws.

6. Hi, ate!! If you’re not busy anymore, can you make a trip down the memory lane of your relationship with Paulo. Ang alam ko lang sa chat kayo nagsimula (lol). I don’t know, I just want to see how you built your relationship from scratch. It’s really inspiring kasi I know for a fact that andaming nangyari before you got together. Much love!! And advance happy anniversary.

Wow that was a lot. I’m not sure if all of these were just from one person— well whoever you are, this post’s section is for you. Haha!

Paolo and I aren’t perfect and we will never be. We have a lot of moments together na yung tipong iisipin mo, buti magkasama parin tong dalawa? buti nagtagal tong dalawa? Haha! Nakakatawa man isipin, pero oo… sobrang normal lang naming mag boyfriend at girlfriend. Hindi ko na patatagalin pa, pero eto lang naman kasi yung secret kung bakit nandito parin kaming dalawa eh.

Because love is a choice. Hindi naman dahil no choice ka na nandito ka na kailangan mo nalang panindigan yan. Love is having the freedom of choosing what you want, what you think is right for you, and whatever your heart and mind wants & needs. 

Recently, Paolo and I just faced one of our biggest problems. Eto yung stage na confused na kayo. Yung hindi niyo alam kung worth it pa ba. Kasi napapadalas yung mga araw na mag-aaway nalang kami o kaya magsisigawan (through text lang naman) tapos di na magrereply. Haha! Sorry, sobrang feeling long distance relationship kami dahil hindi na isang jeep away ang bahay namin. Haha! Taga probinsya na ang lola niyo. Chos! Haha. Anyway, basta yun nga. Recently hindi kami okay dahil medyo naging selfish kami, medyo naging immature kami. Mahilig kasi kami magsabihan na selfish yung isa. Kasi yun bang feeling mo na may hindi lang nagawa yung partner mo, feeling mo sobrang dami mo ng ginawa para sa kanya at wala siyang ginawang mabuti para sayo. Madalas kasi sa relationship ganon eh, minsan sasabihin natin na selfish sila.. pero yung totoo tayo talaga yung selfish kasi kaya natin silang sabihan ng ganon. Pero yun na nga, parang in the end— it didn’t matter who’s right and who’s wrong.

Nakakatuwa kasi this time hindi ko alam bakit hindi namin kailangan ”mag-usap” or magkaroon ng confrontation sa isa’t isa dahil na rin siguro naintindihan namin kung bakit kami nagkaganon. Kung bakit kailangan namin hindi magusap. Kung bakit kailangan din namin mapag-isa. Iba yung feeling eh. Hindi siya yung away na “oh siya nevermind nalang kalimutan nalang natin yung nangyari..” Iba eh. Parang ok na kasi alam namin sa sarili namin na okay na talaga. At walang hard feelings pa. Yun yung mas magandang pagiging okay. <3

Normal lang na mag away sa isang relationship. Kasi alam niyo kung walang ganon, mas boring. Hindi niyo makikilala yung isa’t-isa. Ewan ang plastic lang siguro. Nagkaroon na ako ng relationship na ganun dati, masaya naman kung tutuusin. Pero tignan mo, hindi nagtagal. Siguro kami yung type ng relationship na kung nasaktan deep inside tinatago nalang para di mag away… pero hindi healthy yun. Dapat linalabas mo rin yan sa partner mo, kaya mo nga sila partner eh. Kasi yun ang dapat na silbi nila sa buhay mo. Yun bang it’s you and me against the world. Dapat kayong dalawa yung magkakilala, kayong dalawa yung nagkakaintindihan.

Ayun lang naman. Tsaka dapat pagiging open at honest lang yan. Oo may mga nagagawang mali yung boyfriend ko but that doesn’t make him the worst person ever. Actually mas ok pa nga yun kasi he’s honest enough to tell me the truth sa mga nagawa niyang mali. And dapat maging thankful tayo kapag ganun, instead na magdadadakdak tungkol sa nagawa niyang yon… just stop, and think. Ask them in a calm way kung bakit nila nagawa ’yun, na masakit para sa’yo.. pero wag mong bubungangaan dahil nako sinasabi ko sayo mababadtrip lang yan sayo. Hahaha!

Okay so one TA entry asked me about what is Paolo and I’s biggest and most solid fight. Hmmm. As far as I remember it happened a few weeks ago. Yung mga tipong pang teleserye. Haha! Wala, siyempre hindi ko naman sasabihin at ikkwento yun dito, but it’s something that made me realize na ”ah, ang swerte ko pala na siya yung naging boyfriend ko.” Cause eto yung away na naging totoo siya, at hindi siya natakot magpakatotoo. At dahil don, naresolve namin yung problema. Dapat kasi may communication, kasi like what I said kanina— kung tinatago niyo lang yung mga hinanakit sa sarili… eh di sasabog yan pag dumating yung time na umapaw yan nako lang… Haha! :-)

Wag kang mainggit na dahil sa marami na kaming pinagdaanan eh perpekto na kami. Hindi dun ang basehan. Tignan mo, college palang kamiwhat more kung mag asawa na kami at may kanya kanya na kaming trabaho at bagong mga kaibigan. Yun ang mas nakakabilib. Diba? Tignan mo nga to si Billy at Nikki, after ilang taon naghiwalay din… char. Haha. Pero yun nga, what matters kasi is magfocus sa ngayon. Pero syempre you also have to think of the wider side, yung future niyo din. Syempre mas maganda kung nakikita niyo yung sarili niyo with your partner sa future. <3

Saka na natin pagusapan yung heartbreak shit. Oo nga pala, wag niyo rin kalimutan mahalin sarili niyo ha. Wag naman masyadong selfish. Pangit din yun. Oo, ako nga pala yung klase ng girlfriend na minsan nakakalimutan na mahalin yun sarili. Yun ang pangit kapag papasok ng relationship eh. Dapat pati yang mga yan, alam niyo. :)

Let me leave you with this link: http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2013/09/10-everyday-things-that-can-save-a-relationship/

10 Notes | Posted on April 09, 2014

So I have decided to stop posting all my instax photos (project365) here because— 1. I am a bit lazy 2. I am busy with all my online shops 3. I don’t have time blogging anymore. Seriously, it’s summer.. I don’t know bakit hindi ko pa rin maharap but I’m trying!!!! Hahaha. Pero I won’t stop taking instax photos don’t worry! Hehehe. I’ll find another way na pwedeng mashare sa inyo yung photos. Well anyway, you guys may check out what’s happening with my life on Instagram: @raquelmallillin :-)

Last month, I bought a cute Siberian Husky from one my friends and now I finally got her!!! She was only a few weeks old the first time I saw her and now she’s almost two months and growing. I won’t be talking too much about her on this post so expect more doggie posts here on my blog. Try ko lang gawing #belladiaries ito. Hahaha!

Also answering my latest Tumblr Ask questions in a while. So you guys gotta wait for it cause I’ll be back!!!!! <3

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